OK, so I’m writing down, more or less at the end of the day, all the things I can recall being afraid of that day:
- Losing my job
- People who are angry with me because I’m wronging them, or so they think
- Neighborhoods I haven’t been to
But a) it’s hard to remember this stuff, even that day, and b) it doesn’t seem to make me any more mindful when fear happens, at the moment of fear. Well, maybe a tiny bit more mindful, but nothing game-changing.
I’ll stick with it, and see if the mindfulness just comes more slowly than I would like.